Well 2020, you started off with a bang!
I spent some time in early January contemplating my space and trying to decide how 2020 was going to play out for me. I am super lucky in that I have a job that lends itself really well to "working from home" (now those famous words) and creating an awesome work/life balance. I came home with the theory that 2020 = 20/20 vision. Taking a step back to really understand life and get my head screwed on securely is I could enter the next phase of my life (I turn 40 in feb 2021) 20 kg lighter and with an abundance of energy, understanding and love.
Fast forward a few months, the world is in crisis, EVERYONE is told.to work from home if possible, 3 kids under 7 at my feet, clients upset that their wedding days have been cancelled and I have written this while devouring a whole packet of white Tim tams. Not ideal.
Certainly the process of stepping back has been achieved - the world has received a reset button, not just me. And there is something very different in deciding that you want to make a change, not that when a change or decision is made for you.
I don't know where you are all at - certainly some days are harder than others.
Sunday, I had all the kids outside - we played, I spent a lot of time doing house maintenance and getting in the garden. I cooked a great meal and really felt like "I've got this covered!!" Next day, Lexie (2 year old) has eaten a bite of a banana, an apple, 1/4 of a toasted sandwich and is having a full meltdown because now she wants the YELLOW biscuits not the red ones!!! For those of you playing at home, that's Cheddar Shapes not Savoy's. I'm not sure she is at an age to explain that the supermarket has restrictions and I can't buy a ridiculous amount of biscuits and I'm also pretty peeved at the level of food wastage.
Jake is now crying in his room as I insisted he have some fruit before a biscuit and he told me "He hated me!" Big day - my first "I hate you." Good Lord, give me strength. We also went for a walk where Jake's legs abruptly stopped working. Winner.
I think I will just go back to hair......